"W...when...?" Mumbling against my palms. A rush of emotions shower over me. I refuse to believe he's dead. Not Gary. It can't be.
"When...When what?" A hand coils around my waist trying to comfort me, but i end up shrugging it off.
"When can we go see him?"
Mark looks at me a little surprised. "Erm...4? We've got a couple of hours yet." Not waiting around any longer i put my flip flops back on reaching for my bag. "Chloe? Where are you going?"
"I'm not sitting here for another 2 hours to see if my boyfriend is dead! It can't be him Mark it just can't be."
"Chloe, wait!" Mark comes running after me once i leave the apartment. "You're not going on your own... please let me be there with you? I know him too..." Thinking for a few seconds i agree to let Mark come too he's right he does know Gary even if they don't get along it's only fair. Plus i need someone for comfort which i wont admit.
We arrive at the hospital after a short drive in a taxi. Once Mark's paid the fare we head instead causing my stomach to do all kinds of flips and twirls. It's a 50/50 chance i could be coming out of here with my heart completely crushed and torn apart. Or there could be the hope that he's still somewhere out there trying to find his way back. Mark speaks to the receptionist clearing a few things up giving me time to breathe. It hasn't sunk in. I could be minutes away from seeing my boyfriend laying stone dead watching my life crumble around me. It isn't real it's just a dream any second i'll wake up in Gary's arms back home in our bed just the three of us. Gently i stroke my stomach as Mark and one of the nurses approach me. "Hello Miss Matthews i'm Mrs Hevness... i'll take you to the morgue where another Doctor will take it from there. You can take all the time you need there will also be a councillor on hand if you need her... do you have any questions?" My world spins around my like i'm on a never ending roller coaster.
"N...no... i... i just want to get it over with." Speaking in whispers i feel my legs tremble with the thought of what i'm about to do.
The nurse guides me and Mark down a few corridor's. It feels like i'm about to go to jail with Mark tightly holding to my arm like a police officer. "Now Miss Matthews when we found the body there was a wallet with him. Once we identified the body... it fit Mr Owen's description. A brown leather wallet empty apart from a doctor's card. Belonging to Mr Barlow." Tears spring to my eyes. I'm going to be sick. Gary's wallet was with the dead body. No. She's lying. Walking back out of the office she presents me with a plastic bag containing the wallet and card. "Is this your boyfriend?" She shows me the photo on the doctor's card. A photo of Gary in his white uniform with a slight smile on his face.
"Oh god." Mark cups his mouth with his hands looking at the card. "C...Chloe..."
Unable to hold back the tears much longer they come flooding out down my cheeks dripping onto Gary's face on the plastic card. He looks so perfect. What i wouldn't give to see him one last time. To hold him. To never let him out of my sight again. "I....I...need....need to...s...see... him..." My eyes look at the windowless door in front of me. "I NEED TO SEE HIM!" I scream feeling my entire body shake. Mark grabs hold of me causing me to kick out. "Get off! Get off me!!" Accidentally kicking my legs out i kick Mark in the shin making him release his grip on me so i'm free. Quickly i push the door open running instead to be stopped in my tracks when i see a white sheet covering something in front of me. A body.
"Chloe!" Mark follows me also freezing once he sees the covered body. "N...no... oh...god...no... is that...?" A doctor appears from one of the office doors. "You must be Miss Matthews? I'm Dr. Bashir. Would you like time before you identify the body? There's room in the office where you can calm down and relax with a coffee."
Looking at him annoyed and frustrated emotions hit me. "Have a cup of coffee??! Relax?! This isn't a fucking hotel! This is my life! This could be the man of my dreams lying lifeless in front of me and you tell me to go and relax with a coffee?!"
The doctor looks at me a little surprised. "Sorry Miss... take your time..." He stands the opposite side of the body facing me and Mark. Taking a few deep breathes i try my best to absorb it all.
After 10 minutes i finally agree to identify the body. Dr Bashir slowly rolls up the thin white sheet causing me to take a tight grip to Mark's shaking hand. My eyelids glue shut almost like i'm on a scary fair ground ride. Slowly i count to ten before i flicker open my eyes. In front of me lays a middle aged male. Blond hair. Around 5ft 8, and his eyes are closed. "G....G....Gary?" Words fall from my lips inaudible. "N....n....no....no...NO! THAT'S NOT GARY!! IT'S NOT!" The body laying in front of me isn't Gary. The body in front of me doesn't have stubble and Gary was a lot more muscular on his arms and torso. Mark stands in shock his eyes look relieved but still shocked. Tears continue to fall from my eyes as i collapse to my knees cradling myself as i cry. He's still alive out there.
Friday, 25 October 2013
Tuesday, 22 October 2013
chapter 25
Two days later i'm allowed to finally come out of hospital. Mark hasn't left my side he's too much of a worrier sometimes. Surprisingly the baby is fine due to the falls on the boat it managed to move him or her near my ribs which they luckily protected the baby. I was asked if i wanted an early scan of the baby, but i refused i want Gary to be there for when i have the scans and until he's found i'm not going to have any scans taken. "Chloe are you sure you want to stay here tonight?" Mark follows me up the path back to the apartment.
"Yes." Answering bluntly i unlock the door, as soon as i enter the room my nostrils are filled with the smell of Gary's over used after shave. He use to drown himself in that stuff. Taking a deep breath closing my eyes i force my legs to walk over to the sofa.
"Would you like a drink?"
My mind drifts off for a minute thinking of the times Gary was here with me. It doesn't feel real not to have my head resting against some part of him. His hand raking through my hair whilst he whispers sweet things into my ear until i fall to sleep to be carried to bed by him. "No thanks Gaz." The state i'm in i don't realise what i'm saying until later on in the day when it hits me.
"Oh...er...o..ok." Mark walks over to the empty space beside me on the sofa. "Do you need anything else? How's the baby? Did you know you was pregnant?"
"Questions...questions..." Muttering under my breath i pinch the bridge of my nose sucking in a deep breath. "I knew the night before... he knew...before he... before...he..." Replying with a shaky breath my head falls against Mark's chest where the tears fall against his shirt. "I....I...can't....I can't...do...t...h...is" Gently Mark wraps his arms around me whilst my head buries even more against him. The smell of Gary's aftershave from air makes Mark smell like him. It almost fells like Gary's holding me. Relaxing now with the mixed up thoughts in my head i'm convinced i'm in Gary's arms.
"Everything's going to be ok..." Mark's accent isn't as strong as Gary's, but i feel safe... i feel sort of happy which i haven't felt in days.
I must of fallen asleep for a little while, because the next thing i know is i feel movement. Opening my eyes i see Mark reaching in my bag for my ringing mobile. "Hello, Chloe Matthews phone." He speaks with a whispering voice leaving his free arm wrapped around me. "I'm her friend. Mark Owen i was the one who collected her from hospital this evening." Mark scrunches his face up a little trying to make out what the person on the other end of the line is saying. I guess they're speaking in Spanish. "Erm... i wasn't on board at the time i flew in once i heard about Chloe in the hospital. He's about... 5ft 8... blond hair... green eyes...erm... no he doesn't wear jewellery... dresses smart... no, no middle names just Gary Barlow he's a doctor if he has his wallet on him he'll have his doctor card in there." Instantly my head lifts by the use of Gary's name. Have they found him? Suddenly i'm wide awake now staring at Mark. "O...oh...you have? I...I understand... y...yeah....sure...i'll...i'll tell... her.. thank you... 4 o'clock? Right... ok...b...bye." He hangs up stroking his forehead anxiously.
Feeling my heart race in my chest i'm in shock. They've fount!! They've found Gary! Tears springs to my eyes, as excitement takes over shining a smile over to Mark who cradles his head.
"Have they??"
Mark doesn't reply his eyes are closed firmly as he steadily breathes. "Mark? Have they really found him?" I feel like a child on Christmas morning. Why doesn't Mark seem happy about it? Without saying a word he nods slightly. "Oh g....gosh... they've.....they've...actually found him??!" Seeing Mark's nod causes tears to come flooding down my cheeks. "When can we see him?? Has he said anything? Is he ok?" Not releasing all the questions i'm asking i grab my bag along with my shoes. "Is he at the hospital i was at?? Well come on Mark let's go i'm not waiting another 2 hours to see him!" Pulling Mark's arm to get him from the sofa he feels much heavier and it feels like his body is shaking. "Mark?!"
"He's not at the hospital." Mark mumbles, as he slowly lifts his head. Looking into his eyes they seem to have saddened.
"Well where is he? But he's been found, right?" I'm confused. What's happening?
"Th...they think they've found him...b...but that wasn't the hospital...Chloe." He closes his eyes taking in a deep breath again.
"Mark what's going on?! Where is he?!" Panicking a little my body begins to tremble this doesn't look good it's going to be bad news i can feel it.
"C...Chloe... that...that was the m...morgue.... they think... they think they've found Gary... you...you need to identify... his body...i'm...so...so sorry..." For the first time i've seen in ages tears roll down Mark's face. Hearing the words leave his mouth my legs feel weak. Uncontrollable my legs hit the floor as i fall to my knees. No. This can't be. My world comes crashing down at my feet.
"Yes." Answering bluntly i unlock the door, as soon as i enter the room my nostrils are filled with the smell of Gary's over used after shave. He use to drown himself in that stuff. Taking a deep breath closing my eyes i force my legs to walk over to the sofa.
"Would you like a drink?"
My mind drifts off for a minute thinking of the times Gary was here with me. It doesn't feel real not to have my head resting against some part of him. His hand raking through my hair whilst he whispers sweet things into my ear until i fall to sleep to be carried to bed by him. "No thanks Gaz." The state i'm in i don't realise what i'm saying until later on in the day when it hits me.
"Oh...er...o..ok." Mark walks over to the empty space beside me on the sofa. "Do you need anything else? How's the baby? Did you know you was pregnant?"
"Questions...questions..." Muttering under my breath i pinch the bridge of my nose sucking in a deep breath. "I knew the night before... he knew...before he... before...he..." Replying with a shaky breath my head falls against Mark's chest where the tears fall against his shirt. "I....I...can't....I can't...do...t...h...is" Gently Mark wraps his arms around me whilst my head buries even more against him. The smell of Gary's aftershave from air makes Mark smell like him. It almost fells like Gary's holding me. Relaxing now with the mixed up thoughts in my head i'm convinced i'm in Gary's arms.
"Everything's going to be ok..." Mark's accent isn't as strong as Gary's, but i feel safe... i feel sort of happy which i haven't felt in days.
I must of fallen asleep for a little while, because the next thing i know is i feel movement. Opening my eyes i see Mark reaching in my bag for my ringing mobile. "Hello, Chloe Matthews phone." He speaks with a whispering voice leaving his free arm wrapped around me. "I'm her friend. Mark Owen i was the one who collected her from hospital this evening." Mark scrunches his face up a little trying to make out what the person on the other end of the line is saying. I guess they're speaking in Spanish. "Erm... i wasn't on board at the time i flew in once i heard about Chloe in the hospital. He's about... 5ft 8... blond hair... green eyes...erm... no he doesn't wear jewellery... dresses smart... no, no middle names just Gary Barlow he's a doctor if he has his wallet on him he'll have his doctor card in there." Instantly my head lifts by the use of Gary's name. Have they found him? Suddenly i'm wide awake now staring at Mark. "O...oh...you have? I...I understand... y...yeah....sure...i'll...i'll tell... her.. thank you... 4 o'clock? Right... ok...b...bye." He hangs up stroking his forehead anxiously.
Feeling my heart race in my chest i'm in shock. They've fount!! They've found Gary! Tears springs to my eyes, as excitement takes over shining a smile over to Mark who cradles his head.
"Have they??"
Mark doesn't reply his eyes are closed firmly as he steadily breathes. "Mark? Have they really found him?" I feel like a child on Christmas morning. Why doesn't Mark seem happy about it? Without saying a word he nods slightly. "Oh g....gosh... they've.....they've...actually found him??!" Seeing Mark's nod causes tears to come flooding down my cheeks. "When can we see him?? Has he said anything? Is he ok?" Not releasing all the questions i'm asking i grab my bag along with my shoes. "Is he at the hospital i was at?? Well come on Mark let's go i'm not waiting another 2 hours to see him!" Pulling Mark's arm to get him from the sofa he feels much heavier and it feels like his body is shaking. "Mark?!"
"He's not at the hospital." Mark mumbles, as he slowly lifts his head. Looking into his eyes they seem to have saddened.
"Well where is he? But he's been found, right?" I'm confused. What's happening?
"Th...they think they've found him...b...but that wasn't the hospital...Chloe." He closes his eyes taking in a deep breath again.
"Mark what's going on?! Where is he?!" Panicking a little my body begins to tremble this doesn't look good it's going to be bad news i can feel it.
"C...Chloe... that...that was the m...morgue.... they think... they think they've found Gary... you...you need to identify... his body...i'm...so...so sorry..." For the first time i've seen in ages tears roll down Mark's face. Hearing the words leave his mouth my legs feel weak. Uncontrollable my legs hit the floor as i fall to my knees. No. This can't be. My world comes crashing down at my feet.
Saturday, 12 October 2013
Chapter 24
We arrive at the nearest hospital i must of collapsed in the boat, because the next thing i know is i'm laid up right in bed. "G...Gaz?" My eyes anxiously search the room. I'm alone apart from a monitor which is wired to me bleeping every few seconds. "Hello??" I call hoping that a nurse or doctor will come in, so i can ask about Gary. Maybe Gary's somewhere in the hospital? I've got to go find him. With the hope and thought of Gary being somewhere in the building i go to look for him. The hospital is slightly crowded i recognise some of the people from the cruise a couple of them are sitting in the waiting area looking at me with faces full of worry. All i'm wearing is a thin hospital gown which the icy breeze from the air conditioner sneaks through. Bare footed i stagger over to the reception desk gritting my teeth from the agony in my ankle. "Miss Matthews what are you doing out here?" The elderly lady looks at me surprised standing from her chair.
"I...I'm looking for...for my boyfriend...Gary?"
She shakes her head taking me by the arm gently almost like i'm a lost child on their first day of school. "You shouldn't be looking for anyone you need rest especially that ankle of yours!" She takes me back to my room opening the door for me. Before setting foot back into the room something catches my eye...or should i say someone.
"Gary?!" My entire body freeze watching 3 doctors come rushing through the entrance of the hospital pushing a stretcher. Gary lays lifeless with a oxygen mask around his mouth shirtless with only a sheet to cover the lower part of his body. His skin is pale matching the white fainted sheet. Seeing him like that almost causes me to black out again. "GARY!" I call pushing my way past people to get into the same room as him.
A few doctors pull me back once Gary is located into a free hospital room. "You can't go in there miss." The small dark haired male doctor closes the door behind him. He stands in front of me not allowing me to see let alone go inside to Gary.
"He's my boyfriend! I have every right! W...We're...going to have... a baby...please?" Uncontrollable floods of tears escape my eyes, as i bury my face into my hands.
After 10 minutes of begging and pleading to see Gary they finally agree. Another doctor appears from inside and whispers to the one who's stopping me from going in. The look on the smaller doctor's face completely drops like a ton of bricks he's left pinching the bridge of his nose releasing a quiet sigh. "Wha...What's happening?" Feeling terrified and sick i slowly stand to my feet walking to the doctor demanding news.
"He...Mr Barlow...would like to see you." Carefully he pushes the door enough for me to slide in. Without wasting time i slide through the gap, but before i fully enter the room the same doctor takes me by the arm. "You can't spend long with him... we'll be back once your time is up..." He releases his loose grip on my arm. Listening to what he says i nod in reply before turning to where Gary's bed is.
Sickness springs in my stomach almost like i'm on a roller coaster looking at Gary. He has a bandage tightly wrapped around his head completely covering his blond fluffy hair with a few blood stains seeping through. A tube hangs out the side of his mouth. Only when i stand beside his bed i notice his chest slowly rising and falling in time with the heart monitor. "Gaz...?" Quietly i whisper. No reply or movement. "Gary? Are you awake?" Carefully i take his hand in mine speaking a little louder. His hand feels like a block of ice compared to mine. Very faintly i notice his eyelids begin to flicker. "O...Oh...G...Gary..." My speech comes out stuttered feeling overwhelmed he's alive.
"C...C...Chloe...." He takes deep breathes during speech.
"I'm here.... i'm here babe..." I stroke the back of his hand against my cheek his finger tips brush my face slightly.
"T...This....I...Is...A...All...M...M...My....Fault...." His eyes close again panting a little faster for his breath. "I...I...Need...T...To...Say....S...Something..."
Kissing his hand trying to warm him up i sit beside him on a chair. "No...Gary please... please don't blame yourself... we didn't know this was going to happen... of course... i'm listening... tell me babe..."
Groaning slightly he takes a few more deep breathes. "P....Promise...me... that....that you..will... spoil....our baby.... p...pr...promise me.... you'll...find the best....daddy...for...for...them to...look...up to..." He pauses allowing a tear to roll down his cheek. Feeling scared and confused i look at him not understanding what he's talking about.
"You're the Dad Gary? What are you talking about?"
Slowly he opens his eyes a little again. "I....I...i'm...not....going...to...make...this..." A couple more tears escape his eyes. "J....Just...promise....to look after both...of yourselves....i'll...i'll always...be looking...down...on...you....both....i....love....you....both..." His hand very gently strokes my stomach and painfully he pushes out a faint smile before closing his eyes again.
"Gary please don't say that! You're going to make this! Please Gary please we're going to help you!" He doesn't respond it's almost like he's fallen into a sleep again causing the monitor to bleep loudly. "Gary?" Gently i nudge his shoulder. No reply. His chest stops moving and the pipe slides out of his mouth. "GARY! G...Ga...GARY! W...Wake... up!" Doing all i can to wake him up from kissing his icy lips to shaking his arm. It's no good. Some doctors come rushing through the door telling me to leave. "I'm not going anywhere!!" I scream not letting go of Gary's arm.
One of the doctors walk over to the monitor switching it off stopping the buzzing sound swirling around my ears. "We're....Sorry Miss..." A nurse places her hand onto my shoulder. "Time of death... 4:11pm..."
Refusing to believe any of them i don't let go of Gary. "WAKE UP! WAKE UP GARY!" Quickly i sit up causing my eyes to snap open.
"Chloe?? Chloe are ok?!" Someone beside me jumps from their seat pulling me into their arms. "It was just a dream Chloe..." Breathing faster i look around wide eyed. I'm back in my hospital room.
"Gary....Gary...he...he's...dead..."
Mark allows his arms to hang loosely around me. Where did he come from? "No... he's not Chloe... the police are still looking for him... you just had a dream... Gary isn't dead."
"D...D...dream...?" I swallow hard failing at holding the tears back. "Ohhh Mark!" Uncontrollable i break down into Mark's arms.
"I...I'm looking for...for my boyfriend...Gary?"
She shakes her head taking me by the arm gently almost like i'm a lost child on their first day of school. "You shouldn't be looking for anyone you need rest especially that ankle of yours!" She takes me back to my room opening the door for me. Before setting foot back into the room something catches my eye...or should i say someone.
"Gary?!" My entire body freeze watching 3 doctors come rushing through the entrance of the hospital pushing a stretcher. Gary lays lifeless with a oxygen mask around his mouth shirtless with only a sheet to cover the lower part of his body. His skin is pale matching the white fainted sheet. Seeing him like that almost causes me to black out again. "GARY!" I call pushing my way past people to get into the same room as him.
A few doctors pull me back once Gary is located into a free hospital room. "You can't go in there miss." The small dark haired male doctor closes the door behind him. He stands in front of me not allowing me to see let alone go inside to Gary.
"He's my boyfriend! I have every right! W...We're...going to have... a baby...please?" Uncontrollable floods of tears escape my eyes, as i bury my face into my hands.
After 10 minutes of begging and pleading to see Gary they finally agree. Another doctor appears from inside and whispers to the one who's stopping me from going in. The look on the smaller doctor's face completely drops like a ton of bricks he's left pinching the bridge of his nose releasing a quiet sigh. "Wha...What's happening?" Feeling terrified and sick i slowly stand to my feet walking to the doctor demanding news.
"He...Mr Barlow...would like to see you." Carefully he pushes the door enough for me to slide in. Without wasting time i slide through the gap, but before i fully enter the room the same doctor takes me by the arm. "You can't spend long with him... we'll be back once your time is up..." He releases his loose grip on my arm. Listening to what he says i nod in reply before turning to where Gary's bed is.
Sickness springs in my stomach almost like i'm on a roller coaster looking at Gary. He has a bandage tightly wrapped around his head completely covering his blond fluffy hair with a few blood stains seeping through. A tube hangs out the side of his mouth. Only when i stand beside his bed i notice his chest slowly rising and falling in time with the heart monitor. "Gaz...?" Quietly i whisper. No reply or movement. "Gary? Are you awake?" Carefully i take his hand in mine speaking a little louder. His hand feels like a block of ice compared to mine. Very faintly i notice his eyelids begin to flicker. "O...Oh...G...Gary..." My speech comes out stuttered feeling overwhelmed he's alive.
"C...C...Chloe...." He takes deep breathes during speech.
"I'm here.... i'm here babe..." I stroke the back of his hand against my cheek his finger tips brush my face slightly.
"T...This....I...Is...A...All...M...M...My....Fault...." His eyes close again panting a little faster for his breath. "I...I...Need...T...To...Say....S...Something..."
Kissing his hand trying to warm him up i sit beside him on a chair. "No...Gary please... please don't blame yourself... we didn't know this was going to happen... of course... i'm listening... tell me babe..."
Groaning slightly he takes a few more deep breathes. "P....Promise...me... that....that you..will... spoil....our baby.... p...pr...promise me.... you'll...find the best....daddy...for...for...them to...look...up to..." He pauses allowing a tear to roll down his cheek. Feeling scared and confused i look at him not understanding what he's talking about.
"You're the Dad Gary? What are you talking about?"
Slowly he opens his eyes a little again. "I....I...i'm...not....going...to...make...this..." A couple more tears escape his eyes. "J....Just...promise....to look after both...of yourselves....i'll...i'll always...be looking...down...on...you....both....i....love....you....both..." His hand very gently strokes my stomach and painfully he pushes out a faint smile before closing his eyes again.
"Gary please don't say that! You're going to make this! Please Gary please we're going to help you!" He doesn't respond it's almost like he's fallen into a sleep again causing the monitor to bleep loudly. "Gary?" Gently i nudge his shoulder. No reply. His chest stops moving and the pipe slides out of his mouth. "GARY! G...Ga...GARY! W...Wake... up!" Doing all i can to wake him up from kissing his icy lips to shaking his arm. It's no good. Some doctors come rushing through the door telling me to leave. "I'm not going anywhere!!" I scream not letting go of Gary's arm.
One of the doctors walk over to the monitor switching it off stopping the buzzing sound swirling around my ears. "We're....Sorry Miss..." A nurse places her hand onto my shoulder. "Time of death... 4:11pm..."
Refusing to believe any of them i don't let go of Gary. "WAKE UP! WAKE UP GARY!" Quickly i sit up causing my eyes to snap open.
"Chloe?? Chloe are ok?!" Someone beside me jumps from their seat pulling me into their arms. "It was just a dream Chloe..." Breathing faster i look around wide eyed. I'm back in my hospital room.
"Gary....Gary...he...he's...dead..."
Mark allows his arms to hang loosely around me. Where did he come from? "No... he's not Chloe... the police are still looking for him... you just had a dream... Gary isn't dead."
"D...D...dream...?" I swallow hard failing at holding the tears back. "Ohhh Mark!" Uncontrollable i break down into Mark's arms.
Thursday, 10 October 2013
Chapter 23
My eyes are glued to the small screen of the scan. I feel sick. Sick with worry and panic. "Chloe? What are you doing in there?" Unable to speak my mouth feels dry, would he leave me? We haven't discussed this so it certainly wasn't planned. The door handle pulls down and a dark figure slides through. Quickly i shove the pregnancy test into my dressing gown's pocket preventing Gary from seeing. "Babe what's wrong?" He crouches beside me placing his hand onto my knee. Do i tell him? Or do i wait until the right moment...?
"I...I..I'm...erm... i had a bad dream... that's all." Speaking with a hoarse tone i can't bring it in me to even look him in the eyes. There's nothing more i hate than lying, especially to loved ones. Gary takes my hand in his and plants a soft kiss on top gently stroking it with his thumb. "Come on... lets get back to bed... i've got a surprise for you tomorrow." He stands to his feet still loosely holding my hand. With a nod i agree hopefully with a good nights sleep things will be better by morning.
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This evening Gary's planned a surprise for me, so i've got to dress for the occasion. Whilst applying my make up in the bathroom mirror i can't help but think of what happened last night. I'm pregnant... i never imagined it to happen like this. I'm the type of person who wants to plan a pregnancy with their partner, so we can avoid the label 'mistake'. Of course i'm going to keep it with or without Gary's support never in a million years would i go down the abortion route. Gritting my teeth firmly i reach for my dress which is hanging on the door before slipping it over my head. A knee length colourful summer dress is what i'll be wearing this evening. For a few seconds i stare at myself in the mirror there's no bump yet, so i guess i can hide it from Gary a little longer. Gently i stroke my stomach soon there will be a small bump there i still can't believe it. My phone buzzes on the sink. Shaking my head from my cloud of thoughts i reach for it clicking open on the message. (1) new message- Gary x. - Babe, you need to come out and meet me on the deck... i love you x. All of sudden a huge grin appears on my face. I can always count on Gary to make me feel better. Once i've finished getting ready i huddle my purse under my arm whilst locking the door behind me.
Tonight's much quieter than the night before. Everyone seems to be in their rooms instead of getting wasted on the desk. It's much darker too there seems to be no lights in sight. What's going on? Trying my best to walk to the middle of the deck out the corner of my eye i notice some lights at the rear end of the cruise ship. Out of nowhere music begins to play. Violins? 3 smartly dressed men walk over to where the lights are playing sweet music on violins. Feeling a little nervous i walk over to their direction it now becomes clear that they're standing around a table. It has a white netted table cloth which hangs to the floor neatly placed on top. Also there's two plates with name tags on each. 'C' and on the other 'G'. Biting my lip i try my best to hold back the smile which i fail to hide, as it plasters all over my face. One of the gentlemen pull back the chair with the name tag 'C'. "Thank you..." Quietly i speak whilst sitting down. This is beautiful. A candle lit meal on a cruise ship whilst looking up at the stars.
"Evening beautiful..." A voice speaks behind me snapping away my gaze from the sky. Gary stands behind with eyes full of love looking at me. He's smartly dressed in some black trousers, white shirt topped with a black waistcoat and matching tie. His hair is a little fluffy which the soft breeze blows slightly. Wow. Not taking my eyes off him they follow him, as he walks to his seat opposite me.
"You....you look...amaz...amazing Gary..." I'm the luckiest girl alive having someone like Gary in my life.
"You too babe." He stares deep into my eyes causing me blush.
The waiter brings our food over whilst we're engaged in conversation. "What are your thoughts on marriage?" Gary asks almost causing me to choke on my chicken.
"M...Marriage?" I mutter whilst sipping a glass of water. Is he going to ask me to marry him?!
"Isn't it your thing? Don't worry i'm not going to get down on one knee at this minute." He winks sucking in a long piece of spaghetti.
"Y...Yes i love weddings... i just... doesn't matter." Blushing even more i bow my head a little continuing with my dinner.
"Well i was thinking marriage would be great in about a year or so i was thinking of extending the house and getting maybe a small clinic or something so i can work from home... what do you think?" I can't believe what i'm hearing this is amazing!
"I'd love that!" Happily i sigh. Things couldn't get any better...maybe it's the right moment to mention being pregnant... "Gaz..."
"Yes babe?" He finishes his dinner giving me his full attention.
Swallowing hard stroking my damp forehead avoiding eye contact once again. "Erm... i need... i need to tell you something..."
"Go ahead? Are you ok?" His smile drops into a worried look. Gently he places his hand on top of mine showing support calming me slightly. I take a deep breath slowly glancing my eyes to his. "G...Gary...erm... i... i'm..i'm pre-" All of sudden i feel myself being thrown across the boat along with loud smashes. The side of my face makes contact with the hard wooden floor. Pain shoots through the whole of my body. Everywhere has gone pitch black some screams sound inside of the boat.
"Chloe?! Chloe???!" Gary's voice shouts through the darkness.
The whole of my body trembles from shocking the boat tips slightly causing me to roll uncontrollable to the side of the railings. "G...Gary?!" Tears run down my face from fear. What's happening?! Someone cups my face. Using just my hands i feel touching the figures face. It's Gary. "Baby?! Are you ok??!" Panic fills his voice.
"W...what's...h...happening?!" Weakly i reply my head hurts from hitting the floor.
"The boats crashed we need to get out of here...Can you walk?" Gary helps me to my feet, but i can't stand for long due to pain in my ankle.
"OUCH!" I cry out tightly holding Gary for support. The boat tips even more allowing water to come flooding in.
"Fucking hell...." Gary mumbles seeing the water swirl around our feet. Quickly he lifts me into his arms and walks as quick as he can to the crowd of people. "What's going on?!" He asks one of the staff members.
"The boats crashed... Someone... or a group have stabbed the captain and crashed the boat... everyone needs to get off here before we all drown to death, so just listen to what we say, ok?" Sickness fills my stomach. There's murders on board and we can drown?!
"G...G...Ga..." More tears come flooding down my face even Gary looks terrified, but wont admit it for my sake.
"We're going to be ok babe..." He plants a kiss onto my forehead joining the rest of the people. A handful of people are crying others screaming making me even more scared.
"What if the killers come out and finish us off?!" One woman shouts driving me into a complete nervous state. Some people start to put on life jackets heading for some boats which the staff members begin to push into the water.
"Here put this on babe." Gary hands me an orange coloured life jacket.
"W...what..what about yours?!" I ask panicking. Almost everyone is in the boats apart from a few of people, also me and Gary.
"Don't worry about me. Just put it on." He nervously instructs. Whilst putting the life jacket on i feel myself being thrown across the boat again, but instead of smashing my head against the floor this time i fall into the sea with water filling my mouth. My eyes search the sea seeing the boat completely turned onto it's side throwing the rest of the people off with it. Rubbing my eyes i search for Gary. He's no where to be seen.
"GARY?!!" I scream. Nothing. Someone grabs me by the arm pulling me into a boat. There's about 6 people on it. "G...Gary?!" Hoping to find Gary pulling me in it turns out to be a young gentleman.
"Are you ok?" He asks securing me into the boat.
"G...Gary... i need Gary! Where is he???!" Angrily i shout scanning the water. Maybe he's got in another boat? Or maybe he's looking for me?
"Chloe!!" A voice shouts catching my attention. Over by the boat is a person holding onto the railing of the boat whilst the rest of the body is in the sea.
"Gary? Oh Gary!" Quickly i try to get out of the boat, but the people stop me. "Get off! Get off me i need to go to him!"
"Oh Chloe...." He wipes his eyes smiling a little at me. "I love you..."
Feeling even more scared about Gary not being safely on board with us causes me to blurt out my secret. "I...I... I'M PREGNANT!"
Gary freezes no emotion shows on his face. "R...rea...really?" He asks trying to look serious, but ends up shining me with a smile.
"Yes....oh Gary.... we're having a baby!" Loudly i call failing to hold back the tears smiling back at him. He covers his mouth still smiling, as he begins to swim to the direction of the boat. I sigh happily finally being able to tell him, closing my eyes i take deep breathes. A loud crash in the water causes me to open my eyes. The boats fully tipped over in the sea. "Gary?" Looking around the sea i search for him again. "GARY?!"
"T...the boat... it....it's gone over...on him...." A woman points to the sea tears fill in her eyes along with shock.
"W....What....? No....no... you're lying... where...where's....Gary.... NOOOOOO!!!"
"I...I..I'm...erm... i had a bad dream... that's all." Speaking with a hoarse tone i can't bring it in me to even look him in the eyes. There's nothing more i hate than lying, especially to loved ones. Gary takes my hand in his and plants a soft kiss on top gently stroking it with his thumb. "Come on... lets get back to bed... i've got a surprise for you tomorrow." He stands to his feet still loosely holding my hand. With a nod i agree hopefully with a good nights sleep things will be better by morning.
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This evening Gary's planned a surprise for me, so i've got to dress for the occasion. Whilst applying my make up in the bathroom mirror i can't help but think of what happened last night. I'm pregnant... i never imagined it to happen like this. I'm the type of person who wants to plan a pregnancy with their partner, so we can avoid the label 'mistake'. Of course i'm going to keep it with or without Gary's support never in a million years would i go down the abortion route. Gritting my teeth firmly i reach for my dress which is hanging on the door before slipping it over my head. A knee length colourful summer dress is what i'll be wearing this evening. For a few seconds i stare at myself in the mirror there's no bump yet, so i guess i can hide it from Gary a little longer. Gently i stroke my stomach soon there will be a small bump there i still can't believe it. My phone buzzes on the sink. Shaking my head from my cloud of thoughts i reach for it clicking open on the message. (1) new message- Gary x. - Babe, you need to come out and meet me on the deck... i love you x. All of sudden a huge grin appears on my face. I can always count on Gary to make me feel better. Once i've finished getting ready i huddle my purse under my arm whilst locking the door behind me.
Tonight's much quieter than the night before. Everyone seems to be in their rooms instead of getting wasted on the desk. It's much darker too there seems to be no lights in sight. What's going on? Trying my best to walk to the middle of the deck out the corner of my eye i notice some lights at the rear end of the cruise ship. Out of nowhere music begins to play. Violins? 3 smartly dressed men walk over to where the lights are playing sweet music on violins. Feeling a little nervous i walk over to their direction it now becomes clear that they're standing around a table. It has a white netted table cloth which hangs to the floor neatly placed on top. Also there's two plates with name tags on each. 'C' and on the other 'G'. Biting my lip i try my best to hold back the smile which i fail to hide, as it plasters all over my face. One of the gentlemen pull back the chair with the name tag 'C'. "Thank you..." Quietly i speak whilst sitting down. This is beautiful. A candle lit meal on a cruise ship whilst looking up at the stars.
"Evening beautiful..." A voice speaks behind me snapping away my gaze from the sky. Gary stands behind with eyes full of love looking at me. He's smartly dressed in some black trousers, white shirt topped with a black waistcoat and matching tie. His hair is a little fluffy which the soft breeze blows slightly. Wow. Not taking my eyes off him they follow him, as he walks to his seat opposite me.
"You....you look...amaz...amazing Gary..." I'm the luckiest girl alive having someone like Gary in my life.
"You too babe." He stares deep into my eyes causing me blush.
The waiter brings our food over whilst we're engaged in conversation. "What are your thoughts on marriage?" Gary asks almost causing me to choke on my chicken.
"M...Marriage?" I mutter whilst sipping a glass of water. Is he going to ask me to marry him?!
"Isn't it your thing? Don't worry i'm not going to get down on one knee at this minute." He winks sucking in a long piece of spaghetti.
"Y...Yes i love weddings... i just... doesn't matter." Blushing even more i bow my head a little continuing with my dinner.
"Well i was thinking marriage would be great in about a year or so i was thinking of extending the house and getting maybe a small clinic or something so i can work from home... what do you think?" I can't believe what i'm hearing this is amazing!
"I'd love that!" Happily i sigh. Things couldn't get any better...maybe it's the right moment to mention being pregnant... "Gaz..."
"Yes babe?" He finishes his dinner giving me his full attention.
Swallowing hard stroking my damp forehead avoiding eye contact once again. "Erm... i need... i need to tell you something..."
"Go ahead? Are you ok?" His smile drops into a worried look. Gently he places his hand on top of mine showing support calming me slightly. I take a deep breath slowly glancing my eyes to his. "G...Gary...erm... i... i'm..i'm pre-" All of sudden i feel myself being thrown across the boat along with loud smashes. The side of my face makes contact with the hard wooden floor. Pain shoots through the whole of my body. Everywhere has gone pitch black some screams sound inside of the boat.
"Chloe?! Chloe???!" Gary's voice shouts through the darkness.
The whole of my body trembles from shocking the boat tips slightly causing me to roll uncontrollable to the side of the railings. "G...Gary?!" Tears run down my face from fear. What's happening?! Someone cups my face. Using just my hands i feel touching the figures face. It's Gary. "Baby?! Are you ok??!" Panic fills his voice.
"W...what's...h...happening?!" Weakly i reply my head hurts from hitting the floor.
"The boats crashed we need to get out of here...Can you walk?" Gary helps me to my feet, but i can't stand for long due to pain in my ankle.
"OUCH!" I cry out tightly holding Gary for support. The boat tips even more allowing water to come flooding in.
"Fucking hell...." Gary mumbles seeing the water swirl around our feet. Quickly he lifts me into his arms and walks as quick as he can to the crowd of people. "What's going on?!" He asks one of the staff members.
"The boats crashed... Someone... or a group have stabbed the captain and crashed the boat... everyone needs to get off here before we all drown to death, so just listen to what we say, ok?" Sickness fills my stomach. There's murders on board and we can drown?!
"G...G...Ga..." More tears come flooding down my face even Gary looks terrified, but wont admit it for my sake.
"We're going to be ok babe..." He plants a kiss onto my forehead joining the rest of the people. A handful of people are crying others screaming making me even more scared.
"What if the killers come out and finish us off?!" One woman shouts driving me into a complete nervous state. Some people start to put on life jackets heading for some boats which the staff members begin to push into the water.
"Here put this on babe." Gary hands me an orange coloured life jacket.
"W...what..what about yours?!" I ask panicking. Almost everyone is in the boats apart from a few of people, also me and Gary.
"Don't worry about me. Just put it on." He nervously instructs. Whilst putting the life jacket on i feel myself being thrown across the boat again, but instead of smashing my head against the floor this time i fall into the sea with water filling my mouth. My eyes search the sea seeing the boat completely turned onto it's side throwing the rest of the people off with it. Rubbing my eyes i search for Gary. He's no where to be seen.
"GARY?!!" I scream. Nothing. Someone grabs me by the arm pulling me into a boat. There's about 6 people on it. "G...Gary?!" Hoping to find Gary pulling me in it turns out to be a young gentleman.
"Are you ok?" He asks securing me into the boat.
"G...Gary... i need Gary! Where is he???!" Angrily i shout scanning the water. Maybe he's got in another boat? Or maybe he's looking for me?
"Chloe!!" A voice shouts catching my attention. Over by the boat is a person holding onto the railing of the boat whilst the rest of the body is in the sea.
"Gary? Oh Gary!" Quickly i try to get out of the boat, but the people stop me. "Get off! Get off me i need to go to him!"
"Oh Chloe...." He wipes his eyes smiling a little at me. "I love you..."
Feeling even more scared about Gary not being safely on board with us causes me to blurt out my secret. "I...I... I'M PREGNANT!"
Gary freezes no emotion shows on his face. "R...rea...really?" He asks trying to look serious, but ends up shining me with a smile.
"Yes....oh Gary.... we're having a baby!" Loudly i call failing to hold back the tears smiling back at him. He covers his mouth still smiling, as he begins to swim to the direction of the boat. I sigh happily finally being able to tell him, closing my eyes i take deep breathes. A loud crash in the water causes me to open my eyes. The boats fully tipped over in the sea. "Gary?" Looking around the sea i search for him again. "GARY?!"
"T...the boat... it....it's gone over...on him...." A woman points to the sea tears fill in her eyes along with shock.
"W....What....? No....no... you're lying... where...where's....Gary.... NOOOOOO!!!"
Wednesday, 9 October 2013
Chapter 22
"S...sorry... i just...-"
"Got a prezzie in there for me ay?" Gary walks crawling onto the bed. My heart begins to beat a little faster. I need to find out alone first just incase.
"S...sort of... but... you can't see it...it's not ready." Quickly i zip my bag up kicking it under the bed out of his reach.
"Hmmm... i guess i'm going to have to unwrap you then..." Forcefully he pushes his lips onto mine causing me to fall flat onto the bed feeling the pressure from his body increase pinning me down. "Lets play a game of... Captain Barlow...." Slowly he sits up resting on the bottom of my stomach. Feeling slightly out of breathe from the kiss i glance up at him through the darkness of the room.
"Huh? What's that?" Asking with a confused tone seeing the grin slide across his face. Him and his games god knows what you'll end up playing!
"Already you're doing it wrong." He tuts squeezing my thigh almost turning his knuckles white. "It's like Simon says... but Captain Barlow says... and if you don't say it... then you've got to face the punishment..."
Raising my eyebrows i look towards the tightness of his trousers around his crotch area. Will this game be fun for him... or me?
"Ok..." Softly i mumble. Gary raises his eyebrow looking at me placing his hand against his ear waiting for me to finish my sentence. "Ok..... Gary..." Biting my lip i try to hide my smile.
"Wrong!" Using his elbows he slides down the bed pulling my legs with him. "Are you going to play the game correctly or am i going to force it out of you?" He replies licking his lips pulling me further down the bed. Already without him making contact i can feel his wet tongue sliding against me, those soft lips turning my skin slightly red and feeling the rough stubble brush against my skin.
"Gary...." Is all i'm able to moan feeling his hands grip either side of my underwear tugging them down past my ankles.
"One last chance..?" He mumbles his hot breathe tickling my skin, already he's having a strong effect on me. My back arches into the pillows moaning his name a little. "G...Ga..." He plunges his tongue against me draining the words from my mouth. Instantly a hand grips a fist full of his hair as he begins to swirl his tongue around my sensitive spots.
"ooooh...." Loudly i moan gritting my teeth, his tongue not allowing me to get use to his rhythm.
"I'm.... the... captain... " Gary speaks during licks and bites teasingly tugging my skin as his hands grip to my backside. Jeeez. A mixture of emotions wash over me whilst receiving Gary's pleasure it all starts to build up inside of me. "G..G..Gaz..." I stutter wrapping my fingers around the strands of his short blond hair. Ignoring me he continues sucking harder and licking faster driving me insane. "GARY PLEASE!" My voice begs him as my body begins to shake.
"Say it..." His voice vibrates against my skin shooting through my entire body. Breathing incredibly fast my eyes shut tightly finally feeling my orgasm crash over me causing me to scream out his name.
"CAPTAIN BARLOW!" Feeling exhausted i sink into the duvet fighting for my breath back. That was good. That was really good.
Gary creeps up beside me planting his lips onto mine allowing me to taste myself on him. "All aboard...." He whispers against my ear nuzzling into my neck.
"W...what?" I pant tilting my head into his direction. Standing to his feet he bows his head taking a better look at me. His erection tightening his trousers almost splitting them demanding attention.
"The captain... says... all... aboard..." He bites his lip whilst running the back of his hand against his moist pink lips. Grinning to myself i sit up understanding his 'game'. Slowly he walks over to the bed, so we change positions. Adjusting himself into a comfortable position he lays on the bed laying on his back with his eyes partly open. Removing the rest of my clothes i crawl on top of him teasingly undoing the rest of his buttons on his shirt. Trailing my tongue around the small patch of blond chest hair dragging it to each of his nipples giving them a sharp bite. "Bitch..." Gary grunts raising me a little on his stomach whilst he arches his back. Flicking my tongue over his nipples i start to tease him even more, as my hand skillfully unzips his trousers allowing him to freely kick them from his legs. "Aaah..." He sighs happily once his erection springs through the side of his briefs. Using just a finger i pull down his briefs exposing his erection fully. My tongue travels down from his chest to his belly button sliding my tongue around it, then finally to the bottom of his stomach. "Oooh..." His hand locks against the back of my head as my tongue shows talent onto his hardened self. "That's it........yes..." Thrusting his hips slightly exploring my mouth showing how eager he is.
"F...fuck....me... Miss Matthews...." He breathless growl sounds in the back of his throat. Grinning like a Cheshire cat enjoying the state i'm turning him into my fingers stroke his stomach, as i begin to position himself against my entrance. Inch by inch he sinks deep inside of me until i sit rested on him.
"Ooooh... Captain..." Moaning louder i rest my head backwards whilst i begin to slowly ride him. Gary secures his hands onto my waist bucking his hips faster sinking deeper into me.
"Oh...fuck..." He stutters holding me tighter increasing his speed rapidly. Sweat builds on both of our foreheads which connects like glue once we press them together. "M...Miss...M...Matthews...." Trying the best he can holding it in Gary bites my lip harder almost fetching blood.
"Come...come for me...." I pant riding him faster resting my hands onto his shoulders helping me increase my pace on him.
"I....I...er...."
"Come for me.... captain.... come Captain Barlow... i want to feel you..." Loudly i groan in his ear. That's all he needs sending him completely off the edge filling me with his load. Another crash of multiple orgasms hit me. "Oooooohhh...." We both fall onto the bed cradling one another.
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The sound of rain hitting against the window wakes me. Soft snores sound against my ear coming from Gary's parted lips. How long have we been asleep for? "Gaz?" I whisper gently nudging him. Nothing. He must be in a deep sleep after our passionate embrace a few moments ago. Sliding out of bed as quiet as possible i reach for my dressing robe from my night bag before tip toeing to the bathroom. Loosely i tie the robe around my naked body whilst searching in my bag. Feeling the hard box at the bottom it sends shivers through my body. I'm nervous. I haven't been this nervous before. My eyes scan the box several times obeying the instructions. It's now or never... Gary wont be asleep forever.
After doing the step by step it says i have to wait 1-2 minutes for the results. Sitting on the toilet seat i stare at the plastic stick which rests on the rim of the sink. How will Gary re act to this? I might not even be pregnant, but maybe i should of told him. Maybe we should of been more careful. Slowly i look at my watch. 3minutes have pasted. Taking a deep breath i take the pregnancy test in my palm. After 3 i think to myself. Grin and bare it. 1....2.... 3. I remove my thumb from the screen. 3weeks pregnant. I swallow hard as tears run to my eyes. It can't be. I'm pregnant?! I'm 3 weeks pregnant??!
"Chloe?" A tired voice from the other side of the door sounds gently knocking causing me to panic even more. What do i do?!
"Got a prezzie in there for me ay?" Gary walks crawling onto the bed. My heart begins to beat a little faster. I need to find out alone first just incase.
"S...sort of... but... you can't see it...it's not ready." Quickly i zip my bag up kicking it under the bed out of his reach.
"Hmmm... i guess i'm going to have to unwrap you then..." Forcefully he pushes his lips onto mine causing me to fall flat onto the bed feeling the pressure from his body increase pinning me down. "Lets play a game of... Captain Barlow...." Slowly he sits up resting on the bottom of my stomach. Feeling slightly out of breathe from the kiss i glance up at him through the darkness of the room.
"Huh? What's that?" Asking with a confused tone seeing the grin slide across his face. Him and his games god knows what you'll end up playing!
"Already you're doing it wrong." He tuts squeezing my thigh almost turning his knuckles white. "It's like Simon says... but Captain Barlow says... and if you don't say it... then you've got to face the punishment..."
Raising my eyebrows i look towards the tightness of his trousers around his crotch area. Will this game be fun for him... or me?
"Ok..." Softly i mumble. Gary raises his eyebrow looking at me placing his hand against his ear waiting for me to finish my sentence. "Ok..... Gary..." Biting my lip i try to hide my smile.
"Wrong!" Using his elbows he slides down the bed pulling my legs with him. "Are you going to play the game correctly or am i going to force it out of you?" He replies licking his lips pulling me further down the bed. Already without him making contact i can feel his wet tongue sliding against me, those soft lips turning my skin slightly red and feeling the rough stubble brush against my skin.
"Gary...." Is all i'm able to moan feeling his hands grip either side of my underwear tugging them down past my ankles.
"One last chance..?" He mumbles his hot breathe tickling my skin, already he's having a strong effect on me. My back arches into the pillows moaning his name a little. "G...Ga..." He plunges his tongue against me draining the words from my mouth. Instantly a hand grips a fist full of his hair as he begins to swirl his tongue around my sensitive spots.
"ooooh...." Loudly i moan gritting my teeth, his tongue not allowing me to get use to his rhythm.
"I'm.... the... captain... " Gary speaks during licks and bites teasingly tugging my skin as his hands grip to my backside. Jeeez. A mixture of emotions wash over me whilst receiving Gary's pleasure it all starts to build up inside of me. "G..G..Gaz..." I stutter wrapping my fingers around the strands of his short blond hair. Ignoring me he continues sucking harder and licking faster driving me insane. "GARY PLEASE!" My voice begs him as my body begins to shake.
"Say it..." His voice vibrates against my skin shooting through my entire body. Breathing incredibly fast my eyes shut tightly finally feeling my orgasm crash over me causing me to scream out his name.
"CAPTAIN BARLOW!" Feeling exhausted i sink into the duvet fighting for my breath back. That was good. That was really good.
Gary creeps up beside me planting his lips onto mine allowing me to taste myself on him. "All aboard...." He whispers against my ear nuzzling into my neck.
"W...what?" I pant tilting my head into his direction. Standing to his feet he bows his head taking a better look at me. His erection tightening his trousers almost splitting them demanding attention.
"The captain... says... all... aboard..." He bites his lip whilst running the back of his hand against his moist pink lips. Grinning to myself i sit up understanding his 'game'. Slowly he walks over to the bed, so we change positions. Adjusting himself into a comfortable position he lays on the bed laying on his back with his eyes partly open. Removing the rest of my clothes i crawl on top of him teasingly undoing the rest of his buttons on his shirt. Trailing my tongue around the small patch of blond chest hair dragging it to each of his nipples giving them a sharp bite. "Bitch..." Gary grunts raising me a little on his stomach whilst he arches his back. Flicking my tongue over his nipples i start to tease him even more, as my hand skillfully unzips his trousers allowing him to freely kick them from his legs. "Aaah..." He sighs happily once his erection springs through the side of his briefs. Using just a finger i pull down his briefs exposing his erection fully. My tongue travels down from his chest to his belly button sliding my tongue around it, then finally to the bottom of his stomach. "Oooh..." His hand locks against the back of my head as my tongue shows talent onto his hardened self. "That's it........yes..." Thrusting his hips slightly exploring my mouth showing how eager he is.
"F...fuck....me... Miss Matthews...." He breathless growl sounds in the back of his throat. Grinning like a Cheshire cat enjoying the state i'm turning him into my fingers stroke his stomach, as i begin to position himself against my entrance. Inch by inch he sinks deep inside of me until i sit rested on him.
"Ooooh... Captain..." Moaning louder i rest my head backwards whilst i begin to slowly ride him. Gary secures his hands onto my waist bucking his hips faster sinking deeper into me.
"Oh...fuck..." He stutters holding me tighter increasing his speed rapidly. Sweat builds on both of our foreheads which connects like glue once we press them together. "M...Miss...M...Matthews...." Trying the best he can holding it in Gary bites my lip harder almost fetching blood.
"Come...come for me...." I pant riding him faster resting my hands onto his shoulders helping me increase my pace on him.
"I....I...er...."
"Come for me.... captain.... come Captain Barlow... i want to feel you..." Loudly i groan in his ear. That's all he needs sending him completely off the edge filling me with his load. Another crash of multiple orgasms hit me. "Oooooohhh...." We both fall onto the bed cradling one another.
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The sound of rain hitting against the window wakes me. Soft snores sound against my ear coming from Gary's parted lips. How long have we been asleep for? "Gaz?" I whisper gently nudging him. Nothing. He must be in a deep sleep after our passionate embrace a few moments ago. Sliding out of bed as quiet as possible i reach for my dressing robe from my night bag before tip toeing to the bathroom. Loosely i tie the robe around my naked body whilst searching in my bag. Feeling the hard box at the bottom it sends shivers through my body. I'm nervous. I haven't been this nervous before. My eyes scan the box several times obeying the instructions. It's now or never... Gary wont be asleep forever.
After doing the step by step it says i have to wait 1-2 minutes for the results. Sitting on the toilet seat i stare at the plastic stick which rests on the rim of the sink. How will Gary re act to this? I might not even be pregnant, but maybe i should of told him. Maybe we should of been more careful. Slowly i look at my watch. 3minutes have pasted. Taking a deep breath i take the pregnancy test in my palm. After 3 i think to myself. Grin and bare it. 1....2.... 3. I remove my thumb from the screen. 3weeks pregnant. I swallow hard as tears run to my eyes. It can't be. I'm pregnant?! I'm 3 weeks pregnant??!
"Chloe?" A tired voice from the other side of the door sounds gently knocking causing me to panic even more. What do i do?!
Friday, 4 October 2013
Chapter 21
"Chloe? Baby come on." Gary whines on the other side of the door. After i've slipped on my dress i apply some light natural tones of make up along with a few squirts of perfume. Gary's planned us a 'little break'. No idea what he means we're on holiday yet we're packing a few things to go away again? Makes no sense really. I quickly grab my small bag with a few overnight things in before opening the bathroom door to find Gary sitting on the sofa's arm. "Finally!" He stands up grinning wearing his brown shorts and blue top with black flip flops. "Ready then?"
"Where are we going? I need to quickly nip to the shop first."
Gary slides his fingers into mine. "It's a surprise." He kisses the end of my nose. "Why do you need to go to the shops?"
"Fancy something sweet." Replying with a shrug for some reason i don't feel myself. Maybe it's the new atmosphere or just everything which has gone off in the past few months.
"Am i not sweet enough?" Cheekily Gary giggles taking a tight grip of my hand as we leave our apartment.
"Hmmm... i'll suppose i'll dip you in chocolate and eat you tonight." I place his finger into my mouth biting the tip. Gary releases a soft groan whilst locking the door behind us.
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"Get a drink for yourself Gaz?" We end up in a small beach supermarket only with about 4 aisles of different groceries
"We're going to be late..." Gary mumbles under his breath. "I don't want anything." Is this Gary or has he been replaced by a 10year old.
"You need a drink babe." I reach for two bottles of coke placing them into the partly full basket. I don't think i've ever gone this mad on sweet things. Guess this is the new me. We walk over to the check out to pay for the shopping. "Oh wait i've forgotten something." Quickly i walk back to one of the aisles looking for some doughnuts. Gary's favourites. Until something catches my eye on the way. For some reason it draws me in getting my attention. Pregnancy tests. I swallow hard staring at the small shelf containing different brands. Don't be silly Chloe you can't be pregnant... i mean i am late this month and we haven't been as careful as we should of been, but that doesn't mean i'm pregnant...
"Chloe! I'm gonna make a quick phone call back in a sec." Gary's voice calls from one of the aisles. As soon as he leaves the shop i pick up one of the boxes. Clearblue 99.9% accurate. There's no harm in being sure is there? I'm probably not even pregnant even if i am all of a sudden eating like an elephant. Taking the box i quickly dash back to the check out to pay for the shopping stuffing the pregnancy test to the bottom of my over night bag. I can't tell Gary not yet i need to find out for myself first i don't even know how he would react to this. "Ready?" He walks back towards me with his Gucci sunglasses perched on the bridge on his nose.
"Uh huh..."
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We arrive at the beach after a 30 minute walk. I've never seen a beach so crowded before it's almost like a huge concert of some sort. "We're here." Gary stops once we reach the sand.
"Here? What do you mean here? I'm not staying on the beach for days god knows what will happen with these people here."
Gary chuckles resting his hand on his stomach. "You silly bugger. Look." He points to the direction of the blue crystal clear water.
"There's nothing there?" I raise my eyebrow getting a little frustrated from the heat. Gary releases a soft sigh whilst placing his hands onto my shoulders moving me into his direction. Something slowly travels in the sea from a distance. "Erh... a boat?"
"Get it now?" A smug grin forms at the corners of his mouth. My jaw drops a little as the boat makes it's way closer to the crowd of people. "I booked us a cruise." I stare at the huge white cruise ship it's almost the same size of the whole beach.
"W..w...wow..." Is all i'm able to mutter.
Once the cruise ship stops in the sea a few smartly dressed men and woman in red walk down a ramp from the boat. They begin to take tickets from the passengers who make their way onto the boat. "Come on babe." Gary takes a tight grip to my hand pushing through the crowd of people. Nervously i follow him past the crowd. Why are we pushing to the front?
"Oi they're pushing in!" A few annoyed people frown at us.
"Fuck off." Gary mumbles under his breath. Feeling like a decade we finally get to the front of the line. He pulls out a card from his pocket. "Dr. Gary Barlow and guest."
"Thank you, and here's your room card sir. You both need to wear these wristbands." The lady smiles in a friendly at us both handing us our brightly coloured wristbands.
"Cheers." We begin walking up the ramp to the deck. It looks amazing i've never been on a cruise ship before. The deck's floor is polished you can even see your reflection on it.
"Sir. Madame. Complementary champagne?" A gentleman in a smart black suit with a bow tie offers us a glass of champagne. Gary takes two glasses and hands me one.
"Oh... no thanks..." I push the glass away a little. IF i am pregnant drinking alcohol isn't a good idea. Gary raises his eyebrow at me looking a little concerned. "I'm ok... it's just...erm.. the heat... it makes me feel sick... that's all." Forcefully i push out a convincing smile.
"Lets find our room, yeah?"
The ship starts to gently rock as it begins to travel again. It must hold thousands of people it's just like the Titanic all over again. We reach our room which has a stunning view of the sea you can even see the different coloured tropical fish swimming beside the boat. "This is... this is amazing Gary...." I sigh happily staring at the glistening rippled sea.
"You're amazing..." A single finger strokes down my spine to the bottom of my back. Sending electrical vibes through out my entire body.
"Mmmm..." Gently i moan grinning softly. "This is going to be so romantic... just like Titanic..."
Gary's lips plant soft kisses against my neck. "Sure is..." His warm breathe tickles my neck.
"Oooh i wanna recreate the scene!" Grinning like a 5 year old i turn around to face him breaking contact with his lips from my neck.
"Scene...?"
"Yeah the one... erm i don't know what it's called. The part when Rose has her arms out like she's flying at the front of the boat?"
Rolling his eyes playfully softly grinning. "I remember... which one."
"Can we do it? I've always wanted to do it since i saw the film. Please?"
"Come on then."
Sneakily we walk over to the very front of the ship. Not one person is around they're all too busy getting drunk on the free champagne. I peer over the side of the ship and my stomach instantly turns at the height we are. "Oh... god... i can't do this..." Before i get chance to walk back inside Gary holds onto my arm pulling me against his chest.
"Sure you can babe... just like in the movie... i'll hold you." He takes me back to the front of the ship so i'm touching the rails.
"B...B..but..." I swallow hard trying my best not to look down.
"Just climb up i've got you." Gary takes a firm grip to my waist helping me onto the railing. Nervously i climb closing my eyes tightly. Doing the same Gary places his feet either side of the bars behind me. "Open your eyes babe..." He whispers against my ear also spreading out my weak arms for me. Very slowly i open my eyes flickering my eyelids so i can get a quick glimpse. "Trust me." Feeling his support i begin to relax fully opening my eyes.
"Wow...." Speechless doesn't even cover it nor does romantic. I rest my head a little onto his chest feeling his steady heartbeat in his chest. This is beautiful. The blazing sun slowly starts to fade into the pink sky. I feel free, overwhelmed and completely loved up.
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"That was so beautiful Gaz!" I grin hugely whilst holding onto Gary's hand to get down from the railings. Tightly his arms wrap around me, as his hand rakes through my long brown curled hair. "Couldn't agree more..." Looking up from his chest i look into his deep blue eyes whilst my hand gently brushes against his golden stubble which looks stunning as the sun hits against it.
"I love you...Gary."
"I love you too..." Our lips gently press against one anothers for a second or two. Slowly we break away only for eye contact before making contact again. This time passionate causing me to swing my arms around the back of his neck pulling him closer. A groan leaves Gary's lips vibrating against mine. "I've got a surprise for you..." He speaks with a breathly voice.
"Oh?" I look a little surprised. More surprises? He's really impressing me tonight.
Without waiting any longer he takes my hand almost dragging me back to our room. "Wait here a sec." I walk over to the bed waiting for him. 'Surprise' i wonder what he has in store for me. Maybe he's going to appear covered in edible body chocolate... wouldn't mind licking that from every inch of his naked body. A cheeky grin appears onto my face with the dirty thoughts swirling around my head.
15 minutes later there's a knock on the door causing me to wake up from my slight daze. "C...come.. in?" Rubbing my eyes i sit up. The door slowly opens and in walks a man dressed in white wearing the same sunglasses as Gary's. Blinking my eyes a few times i stare at the man. "G...G..Gary?" I almost choke staring at him dressed as a Captain. Seeing his bare chest through his half done up shirt and the bulge in his tight white trousers.
"Evening Miss Matthews..." He locks the door behind him slowly making his way over to the bed. "I'm your Captain...for this evening... Captain Barlow..." His hand moves to the direction of my overnight bag. My eyes snap from my trance of him remembering the pregnancy test is in there.
"No! Wait!" I call grabbing hold of my bag. A confused look spreads across Gary's face. Shit.
"Where are we going? I need to quickly nip to the shop first."
Gary slides his fingers into mine. "It's a surprise." He kisses the end of my nose. "Why do you need to go to the shops?"
"Fancy something sweet." Replying with a shrug for some reason i don't feel myself. Maybe it's the new atmosphere or just everything which has gone off in the past few months.
"Am i not sweet enough?" Cheekily Gary giggles taking a tight grip of my hand as we leave our apartment.
"Hmmm... i'll suppose i'll dip you in chocolate and eat you tonight." I place his finger into my mouth biting the tip. Gary releases a soft groan whilst locking the door behind us.
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"Get a drink for yourself Gaz?" We end up in a small beach supermarket only with about 4 aisles of different groceries
"We're going to be late..." Gary mumbles under his breath. "I don't want anything." Is this Gary or has he been replaced by a 10year old.
"You need a drink babe." I reach for two bottles of coke placing them into the partly full basket. I don't think i've ever gone this mad on sweet things. Guess this is the new me. We walk over to the check out to pay for the shopping. "Oh wait i've forgotten something." Quickly i walk back to one of the aisles looking for some doughnuts. Gary's favourites. Until something catches my eye on the way. For some reason it draws me in getting my attention. Pregnancy tests. I swallow hard staring at the small shelf containing different brands. Don't be silly Chloe you can't be pregnant... i mean i am late this month and we haven't been as careful as we should of been, but that doesn't mean i'm pregnant...
"Chloe! I'm gonna make a quick phone call back in a sec." Gary's voice calls from one of the aisles. As soon as he leaves the shop i pick up one of the boxes. Clearblue 99.9% accurate. There's no harm in being sure is there? I'm probably not even pregnant even if i am all of a sudden eating like an elephant. Taking the box i quickly dash back to the check out to pay for the shopping stuffing the pregnancy test to the bottom of my over night bag. I can't tell Gary not yet i need to find out for myself first i don't even know how he would react to this. "Ready?" He walks back towards me with his Gucci sunglasses perched on the bridge on his nose.
"Uh huh..."
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We arrive at the beach after a 30 minute walk. I've never seen a beach so crowded before it's almost like a huge concert of some sort. "We're here." Gary stops once we reach the sand.
"Here? What do you mean here? I'm not staying on the beach for days god knows what will happen with these people here."
Gary chuckles resting his hand on his stomach. "You silly bugger. Look." He points to the direction of the blue crystal clear water.
"There's nothing there?" I raise my eyebrow getting a little frustrated from the heat. Gary releases a soft sigh whilst placing his hands onto my shoulders moving me into his direction. Something slowly travels in the sea from a distance. "Erh... a boat?"
"Get it now?" A smug grin forms at the corners of his mouth. My jaw drops a little as the boat makes it's way closer to the crowd of people. "I booked us a cruise." I stare at the huge white cruise ship it's almost the same size of the whole beach.
"W..w...wow..." Is all i'm able to mutter.
Once the cruise ship stops in the sea a few smartly dressed men and woman in red walk down a ramp from the boat. They begin to take tickets from the passengers who make their way onto the boat. "Come on babe." Gary takes a tight grip to my hand pushing through the crowd of people. Nervously i follow him past the crowd. Why are we pushing to the front?
"Oi they're pushing in!" A few annoyed people frown at us.
"Fuck off." Gary mumbles under his breath. Feeling like a decade we finally get to the front of the line. He pulls out a card from his pocket. "Dr. Gary Barlow and guest."
"Thank you, and here's your room card sir. You both need to wear these wristbands." The lady smiles in a friendly at us both handing us our brightly coloured wristbands.
"Cheers." We begin walking up the ramp to the deck. It looks amazing i've never been on a cruise ship before. The deck's floor is polished you can even see your reflection on it.
"Sir. Madame. Complementary champagne?" A gentleman in a smart black suit with a bow tie offers us a glass of champagne. Gary takes two glasses and hands me one.
"Oh... no thanks..." I push the glass away a little. IF i am pregnant drinking alcohol isn't a good idea. Gary raises his eyebrow at me looking a little concerned. "I'm ok... it's just...erm.. the heat... it makes me feel sick... that's all." Forcefully i push out a convincing smile.
"Lets find our room, yeah?"
The ship starts to gently rock as it begins to travel again. It must hold thousands of people it's just like the Titanic all over again. We reach our room which has a stunning view of the sea you can even see the different coloured tropical fish swimming beside the boat. "This is... this is amazing Gary...." I sigh happily staring at the glistening rippled sea.
"You're amazing..." A single finger strokes down my spine to the bottom of my back. Sending electrical vibes through out my entire body.
"Mmmm..." Gently i moan grinning softly. "This is going to be so romantic... just like Titanic..."
Gary's lips plant soft kisses against my neck. "Sure is..." His warm breathe tickles my neck.
"Oooh i wanna recreate the scene!" Grinning like a 5 year old i turn around to face him breaking contact with his lips from my neck.
"Scene...?"
"Yeah the one... erm i don't know what it's called. The part when Rose has her arms out like she's flying at the front of the boat?"
Rolling his eyes playfully softly grinning. "I remember... which one."
"Can we do it? I've always wanted to do it since i saw the film. Please?"
"Come on then."
Sneakily we walk over to the very front of the ship. Not one person is around they're all too busy getting drunk on the free champagne. I peer over the side of the ship and my stomach instantly turns at the height we are. "Oh... god... i can't do this..." Before i get chance to walk back inside Gary holds onto my arm pulling me against his chest.
"Sure you can babe... just like in the movie... i'll hold you." He takes me back to the front of the ship so i'm touching the rails.
"B...B..but..." I swallow hard trying my best not to look down.
"Just climb up i've got you." Gary takes a firm grip to my waist helping me onto the railing. Nervously i climb closing my eyes tightly. Doing the same Gary places his feet either side of the bars behind me. "Open your eyes babe..." He whispers against my ear also spreading out my weak arms for me. Very slowly i open my eyes flickering my eyelids so i can get a quick glimpse. "Trust me." Feeling his support i begin to relax fully opening my eyes.
"Wow...." Speechless doesn't even cover it nor does romantic. I rest my head a little onto his chest feeling his steady heartbeat in his chest. This is beautiful. The blazing sun slowly starts to fade into the pink sky. I feel free, overwhelmed and completely loved up.
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"That was so beautiful Gaz!" I grin hugely whilst holding onto Gary's hand to get down from the railings. Tightly his arms wrap around me, as his hand rakes through my long brown curled hair. "Couldn't agree more..." Looking up from his chest i look into his deep blue eyes whilst my hand gently brushes against his golden stubble which looks stunning as the sun hits against it.
"I love you...Gary."
"I love you too..." Our lips gently press against one anothers for a second or two. Slowly we break away only for eye contact before making contact again. This time passionate causing me to swing my arms around the back of his neck pulling him closer. A groan leaves Gary's lips vibrating against mine. "I've got a surprise for you..." He speaks with a breathly voice.
"Oh?" I look a little surprised. More surprises? He's really impressing me tonight.
Without waiting any longer he takes my hand almost dragging me back to our room. "Wait here a sec." I walk over to the bed waiting for him. 'Surprise' i wonder what he has in store for me. Maybe he's going to appear covered in edible body chocolate... wouldn't mind licking that from every inch of his naked body. A cheeky grin appears onto my face with the dirty thoughts swirling around my head.
15 minutes later there's a knock on the door causing me to wake up from my slight daze. "C...come.. in?" Rubbing my eyes i sit up. The door slowly opens and in walks a man dressed in white wearing the same sunglasses as Gary's. Blinking my eyes a few times i stare at the man. "G...G..Gary?" I almost choke staring at him dressed as a Captain. Seeing his bare chest through his half done up shirt and the bulge in his tight white trousers.
"Evening Miss Matthews..." He locks the door behind him slowly making his way over to the bed. "I'm your Captain...for this evening... Captain Barlow..." His hand moves to the direction of my overnight bag. My eyes snap from my trance of him remembering the pregnancy test is in there.
"No! Wait!" I call grabbing hold of my bag. A confused look spreads across Gary's face. Shit.
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